Tomorrow, tomorrow...

I intended to begin this blog with a a detailed look into the interior of my car. It was TRASHED, nightmarishly bad (on the subject of nightmares, I had one last night about apples. my mom had bought the apples that come prepackaged in a bag and I was picking through them to try and find one for work and they were all bad. When I woke up this morning I found myself staring at the bag because I couldn't tell if I had dreamed it or if that was real. I knew I was on the edge of pyschotic behavior so I chose an apple from the apple bag and ate it for breakfast. More on breakfast later.) The front seat held my books, the front floor board a notebook, bowl full of left-over strutel topping, fork, one sock and a pair of sun-glasses, the right back seat my clothing pole that fell down with a pink sweater top drapped over the top with that side of the floor-board having 3 pair sunglasses, 5-6 pair random sockies, Nalgene bottle, 2 glasses, several cd's, 1 cup with oatmeal dried in it, 2 pair shoes, and random pieces of trash. The left back seat held 4 sweaters, a jean jacket, 4 books, info folder, several fliers and an info packet while its floor-board had an additional pair of shoes, combination lock, pda, ministry magazine, one lone black toe topper, a tupperware container with a banana peel and tuna can in it, and an assortment of random bits of trash. I don't even want to think about the trunk. I know for a fact there's a tin can of items fermenting back there as I had a little peak into it when I was scavenging for food the other day. This last Tuesday I was so grossed out that I went through the car wash, for some reason I thought if the outside was clean I would feel better about the inside BUT I don't ride on the outside of the car. I did however beat all the other cars too the car wash and enjoyed my super-delux-extra-special-multi-colored-touchless car wash AND I found that it is the perfect public place to put on your make-up and no one can see you. It's the PDA loop-hole. So Lisa accompanied me out to my car and helped me get almost everything out so now it's just dirty, it's not messy anymore. Project for tonight!!! I don't know... I do need to pack and such. AHK. I don't have any clean clothes. So much for not starting with my car.

I had a sudden inspiration about something on my way to work today but unfortunately I didn't write it down. typical. and now what was a life-changing epiphany is lost forever. It was something about trust and impure motives and how the two relate.

Anyway the important thing now is to state that I am KILLING myself at my desk because I caved in and ate my lavash and hummus for breakfast instead of saving it for lunch. I've searched all over the building for gum and no one seems to think that gum is an important product to carry. Plenty of sugar and aspertame but NO GUM. What to do??? I dug through my purse found a packet of peanuts and a couple samples of peach and key lime 'buds' that I picked up yesterday at Central Market. I went to CM to pick up steel cut oats and tea and ended up with the fixings for a mushroom, kalamata olive, artichoke, pesto, feta pizza. mmmm. I think I layered everything wrong but it was still yum. Unfortunately after eating the 'buds' I have a limey-peachy-garlicy taste in my mouth which is very very nasty. The impossible happened, the aroma is worse than before. I'm afraid to talk to anyone but i have an appointment at 2:30 so hopefully by then I will have found a solution. Maybe it's a good idea to have a toothbrush and toothpaste in addition to everything else in my desk. AND what if I get desensitized to the smell and think that I am fine when really everyone is dying around me?! I think this is happening because the results of the tic-tac test showing improvement. Well, I should probably go have lunch and study some. ciao ciao.